I did the one day.  For the most part it wasn't too bad.  I really wanted something in the afternoon, as I usually do, but managed to just drink water and keep going.  There have been a million times that the "just drink water instead" didn't work at all.  For the most part I think it is a crock.  Just drink water or wait 10 mins and the craving will go away.  I hate those two things, particularly if I am experiencing PMS at the time.  Those intense cravings don't just go away because some time has passed or because my belly felt full for a few mins after drinking a glass of water.  But for whatever reason, yesterday it seemed to work ok.  Or maybe it just worked because I knew that I wasn't going to have anything and so I knew the glass of water was all I had to work with.  I guess all these little tricks only work if you are determined to not do it, the only thing they accomplish is they can sometimes make it a little easier if you know you aren't going to give in.  I don't think that they in any way replace that sugar fix.  Ever.

I had forgotten that I was going out with a friend at night and thought, darn, why did I commit for today?  Couldn't I have waited until tomorrow, I would sure love some ice cream tonight?  See, that is the problem with a sugar addiction.  I have had people say to me, just eat a treat on special occasions.  You have to have it on Christmas!  And what about Halloween, and Thanksgiving and your birthday?!?  Everyone is very concerned that I won't get to have a treat on that "special" occasion and I have to wonder why.  Is it because they want to eat the treats themselves without feeling guilty?  Is it because they wonder if they should be off sugar as well?  I truly believe that not everyone has to cut out sugar.  I think there are a lot of people that do just fine moderating it.  Unfortunately, I am not one of them so why can't I just not participate and have it be my thing and no one else has to worry about it?  I do understand their reasoning, if I just had treats just on those special days, then it wouldn't really be a big deal.  And I agree, I wouldn't have a problem with sugar if I only ate on select occasions.  But for a sugar addict, Christmas and Halloween and Thanksgiving soon turns into Easter and New Years and all family members birthdays and what about that great BBQ for Memorial Day and "here mom, I made a special dessert, will you please try some?" and on and on and on.  Just like last night.  It would have been easy for me to say "I never go out with friends, of course I should have a treat tonight, this is definitely a special occasion".  And before I know it, I'm looking for and creating special occasion just so that I can eat a treat.  I know this because I have experienced it.  I'm not just speculating  about what may happen, I have literally tried a hundred different ways to moderate treats and guess what?  None of them have worked.  The only thing I have ever been successful at is cutting it out entirely.  I just have never committed to that for life and so I always go back.

It's hard because I would love to participate in the love of all things sweet especially at big gatherings but the reality is that I have tried and it just doesn't work.  It never works.  In the end, I always end up right back to where I started, which consists of me eating 90% sugar and 10% other stuff.  That is not an exaggeration, there have been many days that by the end of the day, my body is literally screaming for something savory because it has only been loaded with sugar all day.  So you see, that is why I can't allow myself to eat a treat on that "special occasion".  Sorry if for some reason that ruins the occasion for you.